I never write things on here about my life. I just felt like typing it out, hoping it would help. I want to say the old me is dead and gone, but it's not true to an extent. I have made so many big year changes for it only being the second month of the year. I have quit my job twice, one due to being mistreated and being yelled at constantly and the other just admitting defeat. I decided to quit retail over all and take a job that I thought would be less stress to make me happy. It didn't.
I settled for something I knew I had exceeded the educational requirements for not the physical requirements for. I went into this job doing the best I could, knowing or thinking I would have the greatest training to do my absolute best. Even with training for three days, I still was not ready to be alone to do this job, which brings me to my failure. I have never left a job without giving some sort of notice, but when you know you can't physically handle the job or feel like you fit in then you just have to be honest like I did. I went to the boss and told him I literally suck at this job. I apologized I couldn't do the job and he said to me, "It takes a strong man to admit his weakness and I appreciate you letting me know." From that conversation went on from me explaining to him I don't want to let you or the team down. You have a great crew that I feel like I am making more work for and they don't deserve that. He told me just keep trying harder so I did continue through the afternoon. After picking up trash around the facility, which isn't why I quit to clarify, I went into bosses office again and said I am sorry to do this, but I can't continue. I said again, "I give your team props for doing what they do and how hard they work. I think it is just best I quit so I don't make matters any worse for you or the team." The conversation ended with being appreciated for my honesty and told me I could put him down a reference for jobs in the future.
Part of the reason I wanted to share this post was because I feel like honesty is something that is not as common as it used to be. If you can be at a job where you are happy, can be yourself, and feel like you belong then that is the place you need to be. I have always given my two weeks at every job I have ever done, but when you know something doesn't feel right then go with your gut and tell the truth. I feel like this was a job I clearly wasn't suited for, but glad I had the experience. I guess the point of my message out to anyone with honesty is that you don't know the outcome, unless you try. I feel like this was the simplest, yet one of the most rewarding exit interviews for a job I have ever had. Even though I apologized for not giving him two weeks notice, he completely understood why I did it. I was thinking about the team and the business. I know not every job you can be honest at because believe me the job before this one I could not be honest at all. It caused me major depression and anxiety. All you can do is give the best you can possibly give and go from there.
